|Spencer (6 Months old) with Me|
|Lydia was able to meet her LIFE SAVERS 10 years later! |
This was a great honor to host and meet these people who have forever changed our life.
Fulfilling my calling has given me a much deeper meaning of self. I'm so proud and empowered from what I have done, however, sometimes it feels like it was all just a dream. I look back now and its really hard to believe that I actually carried Spencer, he's alive, and he's happy at home with his parents. It really is a surreal feeling. I'm not sure that the surrealness (if that's a word) of it will ever change. I was able to see Spencer and his parents a month ago and that's truly my only feeling...SURREAL! We did a mini photo shoot. He is so darn cute!!!
|6 Month Photo Shoot...YES, he's this happy all of the time|
I know the main thing that people are dying to hear is how are my emotions AND if I would do it again...
Well, other than feeling like I just woke up from this amazing dream, I feel just like me! There is a emotional connection but as we slowly drifted back into our normal lives I now stand a little taller, feel a little prouder, I'm a better wife, mother, daughter, and sister. I know the feeling of successfully fulfilling a deep calling and how I want to fulfill more dreams and desires. It makes me excited to see what life has in store for our family and how I can be the most supportive wife to my husband. I will be able to stand by his side and be his cheerleader just like he did for me.
YES, I'd be a surrogate in a heartbeat! I could see myself doing this four times, however, I'm not certain that it would be the best thing on my body...remember the leading by example?! Maybe just once more...only time will tell ;)
It sounds like we have a "ghost writer" for our book. We found someone that knows the intricate details about surrogacy and has the ability to write so you can see the twinkle in our eye. He is the biggest surrogate advocate that I know and will be a pleasure to work with. I don't think we'll have a hard time selling this book. I actually just spoke with two women from a local radio station that would love to follow a second surrogacy from start to finish with me. Of course my husband and IPs would have to agree, but it would be fun to be the "voice" of surrogacy. It would allow people to hear a positive side through the whole journey. Again, only time will tell. It would be fun and a great resource to get our book off in the right direction.
I would love to invite those of you who still don't understand any of this to please ask questions. I would be happy to answer anything you'd like to know! It's better to ask the questions and get real answers so you can fully understand rather than passing judgmental feelings. Peace, my friends, this was an amazing journey!